Last update on here.

2012 is in full swing and big changes are in the air. I won't be updating this blog anymore. Why you ask? Well it's because I've gotten all fancy and have a real website now. I am also doing a podcast now. I am right on track to be self employed by summer like I said I would be. Here are the links to all the mentioned sites.

www.yoitsjc.com - my personal site

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2011 recap < plans for 2012

I can't say 2011 was a complete bust, but it wasn't awesome either. The year started off like any other year. I had high hopes that this was gonna be the year that things started to look up, and for a brief moment they actually did. 2011 was the year that I finally found myself and my calling. I had my best friend to thank for that. Through her constant question asking and nagging she really made me dig down deep and evaluate what I really wanted in life. She believed in me when no one else had and for the first time I actually believed in myself. I'll forever be grateful for her, even at times I seemed to be slightly irritated with the constant questions. I fell in love and broke my own heart. I lost my best friend because I'm a huge ass, pushed another friend away because that's what I do when I'm hurt. I did manage to bury myself in the gym and lose 50lbs. So 2011 wasn't the best but I'm still thankful for everything this year. 2012 is gonna be my year(I know I say this every year) but I have a couple big projects in the works that should make me completely self employed by the middle of the year. 2012 is gonna be the year I go for gold, I'm gonna get back out there and date, I think this 6 month break was enough for me. Nothing is gonna stop me in 2012.

Screaming Infidelities…

So I'm laying on the couch suffering through the last stretch of food poisoning watching tv and I hate what I see. Maybe it's always been the thing but I'm just now noticing how every character in every show is a cheater. There is nothing I despise more than cheating. I hate the fact that I've cheated and almost everyone I've ever met has admitted to cheating as well. What has happened to values and morals? Does integrity even exist anymore? Why does Hollywood feel the need to use cheating in its stories? I would just like to see one movie or show where someone has some sort of a moral compass.

Judge not lest ye be judged

I have a different personality. Most people don't get it. Those who do get it usually end up being some of my best friends. Lately I've been taking a lot of heat for my personality and sense of humor. I'll admit it's sarcastic and at times highly offensive. I'm never abusive with it and I don't knock other people or get off on watching others misfortunes. I don't hate women, despite what my jokes sound like. I've never once passed judgement on any of my friends for anything they have done or said. I kinda expect the same. Judge not lest ye be judged. I'm not religious by any means, but those who know me know I have a heart of gold. I will always strive to do the right thing, and I'll always be there for you, even when I shouldn't. Keep this in mind next time I've upset you and you want to call me out. Have I ever done it to you? Chances are I could've but didn't. I won't post shitty remarks when I disagree with something you've said. We are all entitled to our opinions and beliefs. Just think at the end of the day, did your shitty remark make you a better person? Before you go thinking I'm holier than thou, I'm not, I know that. This was all over the place. Hope it makes sense.

I'm a mess, that's the best way to describe it.

I don't like to get personal on here but here it goes. I've been a mess these past few days. I'm not going to go into all the details surrounding it for everyone's benefit. I had a friend, hell I'd call her my best friend. We talked everyday and for the first time in my life I was open and honest about everything. I never felt pressured or judged. She knew my flaws and there are plenty. She never once judged me and I love her for that. I jokingly told her if I ever got married again she had to be my best man, that's how close we got. The more we talked the more I realized how awesome she was. As with my life it's never simple. I started getting romantic feelings for her sometime last year and never really said anything because there was complications. Fast forward and feelings were mutual. We stepped up the friendship to a romantic level and things have never been the same. I love this woman with all my heart, she is nothing I ever expected I could fall for. Like I said nothing is ever simple in my life. There is always some sort of complication. After escalating the friendship to the romantic level, it was hard for me to go back to the friendship level. I tried and it killed me. All I want is to be with her. I had to step back and be a realist, I'm a bit of a dreamer I can admit. The odds of us working out were slim and I still want to be friends. Talking to her everyday while having these feelings and the realization that most likely nothing would ever happen killed me. I decided I had to do whats best for me and stop talking to her until I had these feelings under control for my own benefit. Is this selfish? Possibly but sometimes you need to do what you feel is best for you. I never wanted to end any friendship or severe ties, and I think that is what happened here. It's fucking killing me everyday. I miss her like crazy, I still think about her all the damn time, I hate this feeling. I've never been this guy. A day without talking to her just doesn't seem like a normal day for me. I hope one day we can move past this and be friends again.

This weeks fitness updates

I worked on cardio this week. On Tuesday I did my tractor tire followed by a kettlebell circuit three times followed by a 1.5 mile run. Wednesday me and Eric did a 5.56 mile run. Thursday I did the hill of hell again and shaved 5 minutes off my time. Saturday we did a 5.56 mile hike/run, when I got home i flipped my tire and did a kettlebell routine. I am down under 185 this week. The weight is falling off.

Thursday and Saturdays fitness updates

Thursday after work me and some co-workers went hiking. We started off at this little trail called Rocky Mouth and it was about .70 miles round trip, really weak. After that we decided we were gonna do what they call the "Hill of Hell". That one was about 1.7 miles round trip and the whole way up is pure incline, it never levels out. It's an old jeep trail for the watershed, technically we were trespassing since we had to jump a couple fences to access it. It leveled me, maybe it was the heat or the backpack with 32lbs(I weighed it when I got home) of crap in it. I was determined to make it to the top of this thing, it took me 21 minutes but I did it. The guys from work run up this thing, I hope to get there by the end of summer.

Saturday me and Chris worked out at the park across the street from his house. We started off with an overhead reverse tire throw, basically like a kettlebell swing but launch it behind you. We then ran after it and did it again. We did that for about 100 yards. Immediately following that we took off for a 1/4 lap and made our way back to the tire. Did the tire throw back across the field. Once we reached the other side we did what I call the grinder. Take two dumbbells do a burpee into a curl into a squat into a neutral chest press and repeat 10 times. After that we did 10 roll ups, 10 squats, 10 split jump lunges each side and 10 hip extensions each side. We did 3 rounds of this workout followed by a 1/4 mile run to end the workout.